god i hate it when i get like this. i tend to tuck away my emotions and thoughts in the real world. and i’d gotten so good at it. and i don’t know what triggered it, but every emotion i’d kept to myself in the past year decided to make its way out and i’m back to unstable little me and i hate it. i don’t know. everything’s just overwhelming right now because i’d bottled it all up for so long. what the hell is happening to me. i’m shaking and pacing around my room isn’t helping and everything is just overwhelming and i just i don’t know
maybe i care too much because when i needed help no one was there for me. and i hated that, more than anything. so i guess it’s just instinct to try and make sure that no one else feels that way.
so beautiful. why can’t you see that?
Sometimes, I search #depressed and stuff like that here on tumblr, so that I can leave messages to people to maybe try and cheer them up. And I can’t begin to tell you how many posts I see of people who feel worthless and want to take their lives away. It just… I can’t describe how it makes me feel. To know that there are so many people out there hurting and giving up. It just.. I know the majority of my followers only follow me for my One Direction posts. But things like this. I just.. I feel so helpless knowing that there are thousands of people around the world that can’t see how prescious they are and I have no abilitly to do anything or help them. It’s stupid, I know, but I can’t help it. I’m an emotional person. And some of the posts I see.. I can relate to because I’ve been through shit like that before. And that just makes me want to help even more. But I can’t. I don’t have the power to. And it just kills me to know that people are ending their lives and I just, I don’t know. I don’t know what the point of this post was. I just needed to get this out. And to the people I do know personally that follow me on here: times when i get like this are part of the reason i was hesitant to give you my url. i can’t fucking control how my emotions just take over me and like even for small reasons and i can’t physically tell anyone so i rant on here and i just i don’t know.
We all want things we can’t have. We all look for things we can’t find.
it’s really heartbreaking how many people are out there right now feeling worthless, hurting themselves, and planning on how to take their life away. it’s really heartbreaking how many people are out there that don’t realize how much they’re worth and how much they’re needed in this world.
i don’t know who, if anyone, will end up reading this, but i just need to get this out there.
you are beautiful. the way you are. you don’t need to starve yourself, you don’t need to punish yourself with that blade, you don’t need to take away your life. you are beautiful and you are worth so so so so much.
don’t let other people tell you who to be, because well, they aren’t you. there’s only one you in this world. you decide who you want to be. don’t let other people tell you that you aren’t good enough. don’t let people tell you that you’re not skinny enough. tall enough. pretty enough. they’re lying. you’re amazing the way you are. please understand that.
you’re worth so much. more than you can see. please don’t hurt yourself. it’s not going to solve anything. trust me. i know that sometimes you do it so that you can have control in something… but please don’t resort to cutting. you’re worth so much more than that. it’s only going to add physical pain to the emotional pain you’re already dealing with. hurting yourself isn’t going to help you. sure, it might make you feel better in the beginning, but honestly, it’s not helping you. you know that too. please, don’t hurt yourself.
you’re not alone, you know? don’t you ever feel like you’re alone. no matter how bizarre or difficult your situation is, i can guarantee you that there is someone somewhere in this huge world dealing with the same thing. don’t ever feel like you’re alone. if you need someone to talk to, vent to, or someone to just be there, don’t be afraid to message me. i don’t want you to feel like you have no one to go to. okay? i know, by looking at my blog, you assume i’m just another teenage girl that’s caught up in the media, but that’s really not it. i listen. i care.
don’t give up. please, please, please don’t give up. i know i don’t know you, but i know that i need you in this world. please, please don’t ever give up. i know everyone’s heard the cliche “it gets better” about a million and two times, but seriously, it does get better. i can’t say when, or how, but i promise you, things will get better. you just have to give life a chance, so please don’t ever give up.
you were put on this earth for a reason. you’re not just a waste of space. you might not believe it, but you have a purpose here. so please, don’t ever feel worthless, because you’re not. you’re so beautiful. don’t hurt yourself. you’re not alone. and never, ever, ever give up.
you are worth so much.
my tickets to the one direction concert next year are so far from the stage.
seriously though i’m gonna bring binoculars
i’m gonna be standing with a box of tissues and binoculars against my face
(i have it all planned out)
why?
last day of school:
- people: oh ma gawwwdd i'm gonna miss you all so muuuchhh!!!
- people: dude we gotta chill this summer aight
- people: *sob* i can't believe this year is over *sob*
- people: nooo! this year went by so fast, i can't believe it's overrrrrr
- people: *crying*
- me: *running* ADIOS BITCHES I DON'T HAVE TO PRETEND TO LIKE ANY OF YOU ANYMORE
oh my god
first thing i read
A person who doesn't have tumblr showing me something
- Them: look
- Me: I saw that already
- Directioner: How long have you been a fan?
- Me: 2010!
- Directioner: Me too!
- Directioner & Me: -fangirl-
- Directionator: I've been a fan since 2009!
- Me:
- Directioner:
- Niall:
- Zayn:
- Louis:
- Liam:
- Harry:
- Teacher:
- Obama:
- Justin Bieber:
- Directioner: Yup. I'm their biggest fan.
If One Direction came out with a perfume:
- Zayn: Cologne, very seductive and spicy.
- Louis: Fruity and fabulous, like Viva La Juicy.
- Liam: Cute and floral, very light.
- Harry: Loud and strong, when you walk into the room, you smell it.
- Niall: Someday by Justin Bieber
